scribbled ; 11:35 pm on
Monday, November 15, 2010
it's been ages since i touched this blog. i guess no one reads it anymore. i shall just be typing something emo again. haha.
seriously why be a hypocrite? you were. yes were. after what i've known today. you were once someone whom i trust, someone whom i share my sorrows and unhappiness with and yet you stabbed me in the back with the bunch of kids. well done. the kids are nothing to me, but you meant something. since you've broken the trust. it's alright. having one less friend like you wouldn't make my life worst.
somehow, i've gotta thank this new kid on the block for telling me so much. i shall not name names here. incase of any repercussions. so i guess this is life, i shall decide to be someone who don't trust anyone ANYMORE. like what my cousin said. these kinda people are all around you. do NOT trust them totally, always stay neutral and just don't bother about all these things. maybe she's right. i shall not care and do my own stuffs from now onwards.
baby told me exactly the same too. why wanna bother? i shall just treat you as a hi-bye friend from now on. i think after letting people make use of me for so long. it's time for me to think more for myself.
a word of advice to all, never trust ANYONE and i mean ANYONE except yourself. or maybe you can trusting ur loved ones. nevertheless, the loved ones might be the ones who hurt you most at the end of the day.
i'm starting to hate waking up. the dreaded feeling sucks. but somehow i have no chose but to do it. just a few more months to go. bryan you can do it! i guess i really need some words of wisdom from anyone. i shall just try to stay happy. luckily for me, i've got my bro yuanjie. lol. my bunch of idiotic friends like qz, pek, mel. lastly, my dearest baby.
i guess they are the only ones i really trust. no to others.. sorry to be hurting anyone, but somehow i've learnt from my lessons. not once but twice. so to those who are really sincere, it's not that i'm not friendly or i do not trust you. it's just that it's really hard for me to trust someone right now.
everyday i have bad feelings surrounding me. i know i've went through even worst times than what i'm going through now. still, i can't help it but to feel demoralised. someone, please do me a favour. help me will you? i wouldn't say it's depression, neither is it a burnout. i'm in the middle of both. i guess. anyone can actually tell me what to do?
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